sammyz aria

my best friend-i miss you n love you still...may you have a good life dear.....

2010-03-28T08:34:00.000-07:00

ok today i am gonna confess something.....ok not really confess but something dat i really wanna say....once i had a very good friend.we became close friends in real short time...say a n year or so....and we absolutely loved each other.both crack heads,weird,out of mind and naughty to the extent that you cant imagine.we had crush on same guy and unbelievably we both co operated with each other in the most fantastic way.....i really loved her but yes there were some horrible misunderstandings and because of this other best friend we had,i hid things from to her...i really wish i had gone according to my instincts,then i would have her still in my life as a best friend.infact i would have the 2 people i loved the most still in my life.ok ! i will quote her sentence she was actually ready to share boyfriend with me.i mean i cant imagine anyone saying that,specially nowadays when people are horribly selfish.i still roll with laughter when i think about her deeds.she was a sweetheart and i really love her and miss her and wish her all the luck for her future life and also apologise for hurting her and hiding things from her.....chutku may you have a wonderful life...!!! love you loads

disclaimer !!!

2010-03-27T06:11:00.000-07:00

ok before i write any more blogs i want to say someting here....many of my posts will be my life inspired but i promise solemnly here that i wont name anyone...if you guess who is it about ...well keep it to yourself...

thank you very much...

have a good day....

habits i pick up !!!

2010-03-26T06:58:00.001-07:00

well this is something which you all must be familiar with.when we are attached with someone hell lot or when we spend too much time with someone.or as in my case when i start somehow seeing myself in them or linking to that particular habit somehow...bam !!! well that's when i pick it up.like the recent has been the case of bella ( from twilight ) and shruti,that is me.i can totally relate to this girl.believe it or not,i do smell blood.and well unknowingly and unintentionally i started associating with her or rather may be you can say associating with kristen stewart.i knew i used to do it but i realised it only when i saw her donig it.like biting my lower lip and stuff like that.i also sometimes pick up words just so not on purpose.like i suddenly started saying 'talk to me' when i pick up the phone...now why dont you think from where you can relate this line....think think !!!

ok you know what !!! when i had decided this as my topic for today in morning,it sounded really good but somehow now i am missing all the things i wanted to write here.....arghhhhhhh.....i hate it.yeah !! i remember now i have this best friend who is like a total babe....and there was a time when we actually started talking absolutely in same manner...he picked some of my habits and i picked some of his...and ta da....you got an absolute awesome way of talking....anyways i will cut it out now,beofre you start using hammer on your screen...lol...have a good day.

can i be a writer ?

2010-03-24T21:14:00.000-07:00

hey good morning !

well i have always been trying to write a book,it was totally fictional earlier but now i am thinking of changing the stream and make it a bit philosophical .i mean i will try to write it in such a way so that people learn something from it.iwish it could be an eye opener.well let's see when and how will i start writing it.but whenver i will do,i will surely let you know

take care

havc a good day.

I am back here too !!!!

2010-03-24T06:59:00.000-07:00

hey everyone,

well i am so sorry for being out of here for so long.i know i know,no articles,no poems,not even a word dropped.i apologize.well now i am here and will be updating my blog regularly.hope oyu will stick by me and keep reading.ta ta and take care.

and o yeah ! i have started a new blog about india ( well what do you expect out of a tourism student,yep yep that is me )

will soon post the link here

catchya soon.

2008-12-19T06:21:00.000-08:00

he has gone through so much, he's falling apart at the seams. he called me last night to go pick him and take him away from his house and the raw desperation in his voice broke my heart... I wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him it'll all be ok. tell him I love him and just hold him until he fell into a peaceful sleep... he was the one who I fell in love with first. I might not tell my friends about it but I do. I love him with all my heart and wish he were happy with no one else to hurt him...

to you i belong....

2008-10-21T05:28:00.000-07:00

sky was the deepest blue,the deepest shade of a deep sea.
and somehow somewhere i was lost in between
stuck between the tog o war of decisions and life.
i was so clutched and couldnt set myself free.
you were there now you disappeared the next moment.
neither were you with me,nor could you leave.
where were we heading to.the relation that was so innocent.

i feel that you are someone else,where we belong is a past wealth.
but then i rrealise that to you i belong,wherever you go ,you carry my heart along.
you are the reason i live,you are my identity.
you will be the one i love,for now and for eternity.

crimson was the shade now above,suggesting the nimbus past.
everything was so in place,just the dream i had always seen.
for you.with you i wanted to live.
sharing the sorrows,surrounded by happiness,in your arms i wanted to breathe last.
where did i made a mistake,why did all our dremas die.
why couldnt we be there forever,why couldnt we see.
how long will i stand alone,will you ever hear my far cry.

i feel that you are someone else,where we belong is a past wealth.
but then i realise that to you i belong,wherever you go,you carry my heart along.
you are the reason i live,you are my identity.
you will be the one i love,for now and for eternity.

you are the one i love

2008-10-21T05:06:00.000-07:00

YOU BE THE CLOUD,I BE THE LIGHTNING
YOU MAKE THE SOUND,I WILL DO THE BRIGHTENING
YOU BE THE RAIN,I BE THE LEAF.
DROP ON ME AND MAKE THE DEW,EVEN IF THE UNION IS BRIEF.
YOU BE THE COLOR,I BE THE BRUSH.
TOGETHER WE BEAUTIFY THE WORLD,THERE AINT NO RUSH.
YOU ARE THE ONE I LOVE,YOU ARE THE ONE I LOVE.
YOU ARE THE ONE I CANT GET OUT OF,AS BELOW SO ABOVE.
YOU ARE THE DREAM I CANT LET GO OF.
YOU ARE THE ONE I LOVE.

YOU BE THE SEA,I BE THE WAVE
WITHOUT YOU I DONT EXIST,FOR YOU I ALWAYS CRAVE.
YOU BE THE BOOK,I BE THE PAGE.
FOR YOU I AM ENVIOUS,FOR YOU ONLY I RAGE.
YOU BE THE LOVE,I BE THE FRIEND.
THE STRONGEST BOND EVER,WHICH WILL HAVE NO END.
YOU ARE THE ONE I LOVE,YOU ARE THE ONE I LOVE.
YOU ARE THE ONE I AM DEPRIVED OF,YOU ARE THE ONE I AM BEREFT OF.
TAKE AWAY FROM ME THE WORLD REST OF,I BE THE LUCKY ONE WITH YOU IN FRONT OF.
YOU ARE THE ONE I LOVE........

HOVERING CLOUD.....

2008-04-12T01:52:00.000-07:00

At the point when dawn breaks into my room
I could see a beautiful cloud lingering near my window
That piece of cloud was my amorphous elf
Depicting my mood by changing itself

i stepped outside for an immaculate day out.

my misty saviour still overcasting me from daystar

the unforgetful past was the only catchful emotion

my alter ego up in the sky followed the procession

i could see everything that mattered to me running away

just the way it had happened when i had thaked for all.

the bygone days broughtt teardrops in my eyes

to keep me company my sky mate began to cry

i was drenched in and out,all emotions getting mingled

i was sad nd afraid,but the cloud up said i am still here.

i could only wish that things this time won.t be snatched away from me.

i was bit satisfied as i knew,my little cloud will be hovering up there to see.

ANGEL OF MY LIFE

2007-04-28T21:10:00.000-07:00

what life is all about,
nobody knows .
all we can do is ,
keep going the way it goes.
mine was just a monotonous one,
facing all the ups and downs.
my own weird ideas and thoughts,
that nobody could dare to shun.
suddenly entered the angel of my life,
which is the miracle i should abide.
he rose me from dirth,
to everything worth.
he is a great person,
a great source of inspiration.
entered the angel of my life,
miracle i should abide.

taught me to deal with strife,
wish he'll always be a part of my life.
the truest person i've ever seen,
real tough dude on whom i can always lean.
entered the angel of my life,
miracle i should abide.

he showed me the untrodden path,
free from all jealousy and wrath.
he is the best thing that could ever happen to me,
the relation we share wish everyone could see.
entered the angel of my life,
miracle i should abide.

he never makes an effort to make me happy,
but i'm always smiling cuz he says somthing crappy.
all i can say he i venerate him for all he is,
o ! such a sage.
he is very uncanny and never takes umbrage.
entered the angel of my life,
miracle i should abide.

in his presence i am always blissed,
may my dear friend by god always be blessed.
entered the angle of my life,
miracle i should abide.
taught me to deal with strife,
wish he will always be a part of my life.

ENDLESS WISHES

2007-04-28T20:35:00.000-07:00

Fulfill my one wish,before you leave me alone
touch my hair,touch my hair so lovingly
so i'll feel your fingers running down ma hair always
after u leave me alone.

Fulfill my one wish before you leave me alone
take my hands,take my hands in yours so cutely
so that my fingers crave to interlock in yours always
after you leave me alone.

Fulfill my one wish before you leave me alone
hug me,hug me so closely
so that i can feel your body warmth against mine always
after you leave me alone.

Fulfill my one wish before you leave me alone
look into my eyes,look into my eyes so deeply
so dat your impression stays in my mind always
after you leave me alone.

Fulfill my one wish before you leave me alone
touch my face,touch my face so sweetly
so that i will remember that moment always
after you leave me alone.

Fulfill my one wish before you leave me alone
kiss me, kiss me so tenderly
so dat my lips remain dewy always
after you leave me alone.

Fulfill my endless wishes before you leave me alone
even though you will leave me
but you will always bewith me in my memories
which i am sure will never leave me alone.

TWO FACED MORTALS

2007-03-16T08:23:00.000-07:00

i was highly depressed few dayz back cuz of fresh 'dhokha' from ma close frnz.and then i realised dat ppl wear face masks- ' da invisible masks ' off course to conceal their true identity.i cud remember da poem i read in some senior class which is basically a conversazione between a son n his dad.father is telllin his son bou da past where everybody was true ,fair and treated everyone equally .he coup de graces wid present generation which has to wear a different mask whly talkin to different ppl.it is peremptory to change da mask( not to mention invisible ).happy mask whn talkin to your crush,attitude mask whn talkin to you lover.hmmm !!! ( sounds tedious )
nowadaz m readin dis buk called ' the rover ' written by APHRA BEHN.everyone used to wear masks in masquerades balls to hide their true very thing.and cuz of da hidden identity a brother molest ( almost !!! ) his own sister phew !!! thankfully generatoin z does not wear the masks actually,otherwise..... unmentionables.....additionally it wud be tiresome removing one mask...wearing other and above that carrying 20-30 masks wid u all de tym....
newaz talkin bou wt happened wimme was....well what happens wid everyone else also.... only difference being i never expected ( as if other ppl do !!! ) for me they were,what they were in front of me.no idea what they were behnid ma back...their concealed images....got a good side kick for ma blind trust....n now i cannot trust anyone.truthfully even ma childhood frnz are sufferin cuz of those ppl...
n whn i come to thnk of it now.even now.i hv started wearin da false faces.i screen me trueself from everyone...lollzzz !!! one more feign in fake world!!!!
WELCOME ME PPL !!!