he has gone through so much, he's falling apart at the seams. he called me last night to go pick him and take him away from his house and the raw desperation in his voice broke my heart... I wanted to hold him in my arms and tell him it'll all be ok. tell him I love him and just hold him until he fell into a peaceful sleep... he was the one who I fell in love with first. I might not tell my friends about it but I do. I love him with all my heart and wish he were happy with no one else to hurt him...